Disappointed

I think it’s one thing to be disappointed in someone else but the worst is to be disappointed in yourself!

Have you ever made a promise to someone or to yourself? I’m sure we all have in one way or another. I promise myself and my wife every time I go on a new diet or health fad that it’s going to stick. “I “promise” this time I’ll keep the weight off or stay healthy!”

I really am my own worst enemy. I lose weight and I gain it back and then I lose it and you know the drill. How could I be here again? Stress is one thing but pure not caring on a personal level..c’mon right!?

I’m so over it. I’m over me. My own self discipline is killing me. I’m disappointed in myself. I used Optavia twice in a year span and the second time helped but it wasn’t as effective. I gained my weight back so quickly this time.

Who’s to blame?

I feel like a broken record. I say I’m working on eating well and it lasts a day or sometimes half a day. My wife buys me healthy food and I do eat it but I tend to always find the food I know I shouldn’t have. I wish I could blame my circumstances, work, family, and friends. But honestly I have a good life, family, friends, and work is hard at times especially running a business in this economy but it’s still not that bad. WHO’s to blame? No one. Just me.

There’s a verse in the Bible that says,

“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭7:15‬ ‭NIV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/111/rom.7.15.niv

Crazy right!? Even in the Bible the writer struggles with personal discipline. His issues weren’t food but his battle with his sin. But did you know that the consumption of too much food or anything else is considered Gluttony?

Definition of: ‘gluttony’ is: ‘excessive eating and drinking.’ Webster’s dictionary

I would say I have an issue with gluttony. Sounds harsh but really I eat way too much when I know I should stop, I eat a little here and a little there and KABOOM!! 15-20lbs is back on! What!? How’d this happen!?